What do I do when I’m nervous?  

Well  apparently I like to do things that make me feel vulnerable.  The week leading up to a kettlebell sport competition is always a bit rocky.  My stomach is in knots, I am terrified that I won’t make weight, I look at the ranking chart and figure out how many reps I would need to do at the higher weight class in order to still make my goals on the platform, I analyze whether or not that is possible and back to stomach upsets.  

In the past during this time I have snapped a people or taken it out on others.  I am committed to not doing that this time.  I have surrounded myself with the best support system possible, I am trained and more ready than ever to attack my CMS ranking, as of Monday morning I was only 1 pound over my weight class and I am eating lots of veggies and will be doing a little steam room time.  It will be fine.  

So instead of blogging and obsessing over my competition, which will be FINE, I am going to get vulnerable.  

I have been being mysterious for some months about a project that I am working on that is very close to my heart.  The video shared here is a teaser for a feature film that I am producing which will cover the interpersonal and social challenges faced by people who are dealing with invisible illnesses like fibromyalgia.  We will share a few different stories of people with different conditions that fall under the invisible illness category.  

I will need to raise quite a bit of money to get this film made and I may be asking for your help.  For now, please take 5 minutes to watch this teaser, share it with your contacts and reach out to me directly if you can help in some way.  Actual fundraising won’t begin until September.  

Thank you for watching, sharing and supporting…I would not be where I am now without my incredible community.  

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I sometimes need a reminder to just go for it! This quote was a nice reminder today. #grateful #ilovekettlebells #whyishaklee #multipreneur #fitactress #instaquote

I sometimes need a reminder to just go for it! This quote was a nice reminder today. #grateful #ilovekettlebells #whyishaklee #multipreneur #fitactress #instaquote

Wednesday’s workout with 22kg @lbkettlebellclub ! It is incredible that my body is feeling so strong a week out from nationals. Acheiving my CMS rank is looking possible at this point but mostly I am excited to be stronger and to be enjoying training! This is #whyishaklee to feel healthy and strong and like my body is capable of anything I ask it to do! #ilovekettlebells #shakleeeffect #fibromyalgia #painfreeandlovingit #iksfa

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A big thank you to Bea for such a beautiful write up! The Chicago Kettlebell Club is growing fast and up to amazing things!

I do a lot of things on a daily basis that scare me. When you take on this challenge the funny thing is that the fear continues to be present but it seems to reduce in magnitude so you are able to look at it and say, I feel you fear, you are just a feeling and you don’t mean anything. Let me do this thing that scares me anyway. #grateful #ilovekettlebells #whyishaklee #multipreneur #producer #fitactress #instaquote

I do a lot of things on a daily basis that scare me. When you take on this challenge the funny thing is that the fear continues to be present but it seems to reduce in magnitude so you are able to look at it and say, I feel you fear, you are just a feeling and you don’t mean anything. Let me do this thing that scares me anyway. #grateful #ilovekettlebells #whyishaklee #multipreneur #producer #fitactress #instaquote

64 reps of OALC in 8min with 20kg. A new PR. My best with 20kg up to this point was 62reps in 10min on the platform at the NY Open a few months ago. I would say my training is going well and grateful doesn’t even begin to cover it! #grateful #ilovekettlebells #iksfa #longcycle #whyishaklee #gainzzz #myentirelifeisapr

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There are misunderstandings, conflicts and power struggles everywhere and all the time. How much of this could be resolved if we just connected and communicated? #connect #listen #instaquote

There are misunderstandings, conflicts and power struggles everywhere and all the time. How much of this could be resolved if we just connected and communicated? #connect #listen #instaquote

I used to hate my legs.
I would do anything and everything to figure out how to make them appear thinner.  I would refuse to wear shorts and hated swimsuits.  I learned all sorts of tricks in how to dress to play up my small waist but hide my lower body.  
A photo like this is something I would have hated maybe only a couple years ago but somewhere along the way I learned to love things about my figure just as they were.  I also learned to appreciate that my legs are strong and an excellent source of power.  They are the reason I am good at kettlebell sport.  They are the reason I can deadlift and squat fairly impressively for my bodyweight even though I have never really trained with a focus on lifting heavy on those lifts and do them as a supplement to kettlebell sport.  My legs are the reason that I can run very fast and they made me a powerful dancer and gymnast.  
This post is for all of the women (and yes men too!) who are beating themselves up over an aspect of their body that they don’t like for whatever reason.  I want to encourage you to take a really good look at the messages you are sending to yourself and whether or not they are doing any good at all.  Sure I prefer now that my legs look lean while they look strong but if someone tells me I have big legs I will say thank you!  All the better for lifting things with.  And I just might accept more invitations to model and show them off.  
To quote Ru Paul… “If you can’t love yourself, how in the heck are you gonna love anyone else.” 
Am I right?

I used to hate my legs.

I would do anything and everything to figure out how to make them appear thinner.  I would refuse to wear shorts and hated swimsuits.  I learned all sorts of tricks in how to dress to play up my small waist but hide my lower body.  

A photo like this is something I would have hated maybe only a couple years ago but somewhere along the way I learned to love things about my figure just as they were.  I also learned to appreciate that my legs are strong and an excellent source of power.  They are the reason I am good at kettlebell sport.  They are the reason I can deadlift and squat fairly impressively for my bodyweight even though I have never really trained with a focus on lifting heavy on those lifts and do them as a supplement to kettlebell sport.  My legs are the reason that I can run very fast and they made me a powerful dancer and gymnast.  

This post is for all of the women (and yes men too!) who are beating themselves up over an aspect of their body that they don’t like for whatever reason.  I want to encourage you to take a really good look at the messages you are sending to yourself and whether or not they are doing any good at all.  Sure I prefer now that my legs look lean while they look strong but if someone tells me I have big legs I will say thank you!  All the better for lifting things with.  And I just might accept more invitations to model and show them off.  

To quote Ru Paul… “If you can’t love yourself, how in the heck are you gonna love anyone else.” 

Am I right?

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"Vision is the art of seeing things invisible." - Jonathan Swift — I have so many incredible things in motion in my life right now and they all come from the fact that I was willing to see a possibility and take an action based upon the vision of what could be if I took that chance. #thisis30 #grateful #bigthings #fitnessmodel #fitactress #whyishaklee #ilovekettlebells

"Vision is the art of seeing things invisible." - Jonathan Swift — I have so many incredible things in motion in my life right now and they all come from the fact that I was willing to see a possibility and take an action based upon the vision of what could be if I took that chance. #thisis30 #grateful #bigthings #fitnessmodel #fitactress #whyishaklee #ilovekettlebells

Let go. Take risks. Have fun! #action #whyishaklee #grateful #instaquote

Let go. Take risks. Have fun! #action #whyishaklee #grateful #instaquote